Once a world of individualism, where hope existed not.
Only determination, equivalating strength.
Strength by contrast, by relativity.
Thus a strength based on Darwin's island, on sadism.
Following was of great joy and comfort, alas! A deluded perspective of ever-lasting.
Came the collapse of the soul, the Godless soul.
The mountain of Love collapsed, the spirit utterly destroyed.
The world became hostile and stranger, the mind knows only pain.
The life wandered for "something more" , looking for a justice.
The mind found knowledge, a controversial alternate viewpoint, inspired.
The spirit pressed on, discovering hope, hope by the cross.
The soul found an uplifting, a source of comfort, a sense of peace.
Deepest wounds healed momentarily, through the strength of prayer.
Equilibrium force acheived, propelled by great love.
Genuiely happiness experienced, all were surrendered.
Hope was clinged onto, faith held tight, and to dream was dared to.
Still, uncertainty existed, but not of faith.
Doubts cleared, one question remained.
Of them two, would the be a future?
This round, whatever the result, comfort was found, garanteed.
Garanteed by the cross, the love that knows no bounds.
some hasnt got any, some still wants more.
when does it start? when does it end?
in this cycle of wants and gots?
i've had but i lost.
i'll just have to make do with what i have now,
and hope for the something more i've lost.
but always my priority, the something more thats yours.
its been awhile since the skies brightened up and hope rained down. and even shorter while when those gifts, blessings were snatched back abruptly from me, like a child's prized teddy bear taken away from him forcefully by a bully.
and since then i have reluctantly allowed my mind to torture me every night.
I was wrong when i thought things could never go worse, and more so when i thought i could reverse the situation as that lead to even more bitterness. Everything backfired.
Right now, im all alone, deserted by my hope. Im no longer covered in that blanket and no longer have my bolster. while my feelings never diluted, not one single bit.
i give up. But i'll always be there. I dont think i was ever properly understood or had the previllage of efforts. But i hold on for certain happiness. Not albeit entirely willingly
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